I've become completely boring. I've nicely settled into being an almost quarter life has been with no motivation to enjoy because there's so much pressure to succeed.

Work is my life folks. I get depressed over the weekend waiting to get back to work. Sad aint it...The one good thing to come out of literally not having much to do is that ive become fascinated with exercising. The first thing I do when I get home from work is break out the sweat approved clothing and begin my hour plus workout.

I seem to be having a problem lately with all my friends telling me they feel "lost". Whats up with that. Here I am actually knowing for the first time who I am and what Im supposed to do and my whole support system is researching new religions and planning 7 year trips to the mountains of wherevathefuck off the coast of why. Its pretty much disheartening. Like I wanna shake the shit outta some of the people and remind them that for the past 10 years when my life was shitty they were happy so why change that shit now. Its too late. I can't have moody friends. Im moody enough for everyone.

The nomad friend in training also happens to be the #1 biggest love of my life. Yea there's a #2 and #3 but im sure anyone who knows me knows that there's always some sort of love going on with me. If its not love/hate its unrequited and if not that its just plain drama filled maury povich who's your daddy kinda love. Im mad I even said that.

Last night I read him a 3 page letter he wrote me when we were 18 telling me how much he loves me and always will and im the only one for him and how his heart breaks when he can't be with me. Yea well add 6 years to that and in comes the memory loss..lol

Either he was hiding his feelings very well during the reading or he really thinks that letter is a good example of his Mac Daddy Pimpalicious Sexy Mofo qualities.

Question: Anyone seen 3 Brothers and a White Dude yet? Im very curious to see how Andre held up and if Tyrese learned anything about acting since Baby Boy. Actually I shouldnt say that..He was pretty good in that. Especially in comparison to Snoop Dogg who basically played himself.