Left alone
Just breath and thought
And pain and flesh
Heart cold. No...numb
I saw you today in my head
Felt your lack of being near
I listened for you but instead
I heard the sound of silence.
Dry cries
Regrets. No...Nostalgia
Were you ever even there?
Did I make up
Emotion
Create my own happy
Memories
That you so cruely
Neglect
To even share?
Today I stopped listening
Briefly stopped short
At the wall you constructed
Abandoned
My need for words
The urge to explain
The responsibility to myself
To try and make you
Understand
Denial. No...Recovery
I could curse you
Till the blood flows
But my heart could
In the process go still.

I listened again
I heard silence
Then I broke down
Yet this time
You never appeared.